In and out, in and out, don\u2019t hyperventilate, don\u2019t overthink it, don\u2019t hold it in, don\u2019t forget to let it out, breathe, breathe, breathe, feel like you\u2019re in labor, feel like you\u2019re drowning, feel like you are barely awake, feel like the world is yelling even though everything is deadly quiet.<\/p>\n
Just Breathe.<\/p>\n
whoooooooooooosh.<\/em><\/p>\n Feel better?<\/p>\n Yeah, but only if you don\u2019t think about it too much.<\/p>\n \u201cSo tell us about this new love interest in your life<\/em>.\u201d a friend asked last night.<\/p>\n I duck my head.\u00a0 \u201cIt\u2019s still a little new, and there are things going on, and I\u2019m just not ready to talk about it<\/em> yet<\/em>.\u201d<\/p>\n Breathe.<\/p>\n My foster dog has started hiding under the covers each night.\u00a0 I often wake up to find him curled up next to my cold, smelly feet.\u00a0 Why would an animal willingly subject himself to such torture?\u00a0 I almost sat on him this morning because I forgot that sometimes a rumpled quilt is not a rumpled quilt, it\u2019s a silly dog.<\/p>\n Breathe.<\/p>\n Work has me in a tizzy.\u00a0 Every day I walk in determined to conquer the world.\u00a0 Many days I flee in hopes that tomorrow will be better.\u00a0 No matter how much I give, it will not be enough because we are running understaffed with no hope of rescue in sight.<\/p>\n Breathe.<\/p>\n Most of the time I\u2019m fine with the fact that the 3 last major relationships in my life have all either gotten married or engaged and that I\u2019m still single.\u00a0 That\u2019s fine.\u00a0 No really, that\u2019s fine.\u00a0 Unless maybe I\u2019m the problem.\u00a0 I\u2019m not the problem though.\u00a0 And there\u2019s not a problem.\u00a0 Well, only that I find myself wondering if there is a problem and I\u2019m just not seeing it and oh god oh god why hast thou forsaken me and how do I not mess this new thing up? Am I being too clingy?\u00a0 Am I being too standoffish? Was I overconfident last night and turn off new people that came to the Geek Meet because in reality I was just trying to hold it together and oh god why hasn\u2019t he texted me and. . .<\/p>\n Breathe.<\/p>\n Breathe.\u00a0<\/p>\n Breathe.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" In and out, in and out, don\u2019t hyperventilate, don\u2019t overthink it, don\u2019t hold it in, don\u2019t forget to let it out, breathe, breathe, breathe, feel like you\u2019re in labor, feel like you\u2019re drowning, feel like you are barely awake, feel like the world is yelling even though everything is deadly quiet. Just Breathe. whoooooooooooosh. Feel…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[3],"tags":[54,9,56,55,53],"class_list":["post-271","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-dating","tag-breathe","tag-dating-2","tag-geek-meet","tag-single","tag-stress"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p2UnPK-4n","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/271","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=271"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/271\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=271"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=271"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/joeywrites.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=271"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}