Christmas Eve was spent with friends and Christmas Night was spent with friends.  There was lots of good food, laughter and love all around. 

There was that one moment when I realized that for the first time in 5 years, I would be waking up alone on Christmas Morning.  But I pushed it out of my mind, because I wouldn’t want to be in bed with someone who didn’t want to be with me.  Also, there are many of my friends who have been waking up alone for 5 Christmases or more and they are surviving.

So now I’m going to redouble my efforts to just not focus on the past – but focus on what I have.   And what I have is a darn good life.  The rest will come, when it’s ready and I’m ready.  But for now – it’s all good.